I'm finally home. For only a week but hey it feels good. I've been at trek, then to Utah, then to EFY, then to Girl's Camp in Santa Barbara. Let me dispel my words of wisdom from these past weeks, because I've learned a lot:
*it's not worth wasting your time trying to impress a boy that you're only going to know for one week
*"Never Suppress a Generous Thought"-Sister Kimball
-probably one of the most important things I learned from EFY and it immediately was recorded into my memory and replays anytime I catch myself suppressing a generous thought which is sadly often.
*I'm really good at sliding right into the "sister/bff" mode for guys. You know you're nothing more than friends when they introduce you as a cousin so that girls don't think of you as competition hahaha, I'm
totally OK with that though.
*I heard the phrase "be in the world but not of the world" again and I got something new out of it. I usually focus on the latter part of the quote but I realized that you have to have both parts. You really do need to be in the world so that you can influence others. I sometimes get so caught up in myself which is sad but I focus on just keeping myself full, when I should also be focusing on filling others as well. This year I'm making it a goal to be more "in" high school. I did a terrible job at this last year, I tried to stay as much out of it as possible. I'm going to embrace the traditions and games and clubs and everything else, minus the parties. I'm excited! I got my senior packet in the mail the other day and the senior bonfire and tp night is coming up soon. Also my senior portrait is on friday. Weird that I'm actually a senior and weird that I'll be 18 in about 4 months.
*I'm stubborn and I like to do things my own way sometimes. So when everyone else was making flower headbands I made this one-
*I love reading Psalms, those words are beautiful.
*Some people try so hard to fill their "need to be loved" with boyfriends/girlfriends but you really only need Christ to fill it.
*The desires or your heart are just as important as your actions. They go hand in hand. The girls camp leader signed me up to sing a solo/duet on the first night of camp but I only got about an hour or two to learn it at camp. I was struggling cause I had never heard it, it was super low and I was so caught up in making sure I would sound good and hoping people might be impressed. But right before the meeting started I caught myself and realized how selfish I was being. Instead I prayed that people would feel the spirit and the message of the song through me. It went better than I ever practiced.
*The feeling of being trapped is the worst ever. One night of camp Camille and I stayed up till 2:30 talking and we saw two mice in our room. Ever since our mice incident at our Bountiful house I've hated them. I was freaking out knowing I had to sleep in the room with them and terrified that I would wake up to a mouse crawling across my face haha. We ended up putting towels under the doors and I slept completely in my sleeping bag haha I survived:)
*Every girls camp should have a dance party.
*I miss Spencer so much it's crazy.
*It's easy to like people that like you, but we should focus more on liking those that don't like us.
well that's all. basically it's been a great summer and I can't wait for Lake Powell in a week!
